-sigh-

thank god its thanksgiving break. i am sick and tired of this school bullshit.
hahah.
you have no idea how much i love sleeping in, no.idea. it makes my fuckin day.
so yesterday, i rented 'how the grinch stole christmas' and i thought the movies were $5 each and i only had $7 so i thought i couldnt rent 'anstasia' (im like on this trip where i HAVE to see all the kid's movies, prolly cuz i havent seen them in forever and theyre amazing.) so i get to the cashier and shes like '$1.09' and im like '....fuck.' and i couldnt get it anymore cuz there were like 1000 million people behind me. but whatevs. i'll get it the next time.

im hungry.
o_o
i didnt eat anything today yet.
D:
damn. imma go downstairs soon and get some food.
yummy.

OH.OH.
AND. I SAW TWILIGHT.
HOLY FUCKIN SHIT.
that movie, was absolutely incredible.
of course it wasnt exactly like the book, but hey, no adaptation can be exactly like the book.
the movie would be like 5 hrs long.
but it was still AMAZING.
edward (aka Rob) was... BEAUTIFUL XD i swear to god. he did SO well, i was pleasantly surprised.
Kristen was alright, though her eyeblinking annoyed me.
The rest of the cullens were.
the shit :3
Jasper cracked me up, Emmett was so cute, Rosalie was a bitch and Alice was...ALice.
And Carlisle and Esme were great.
it was so awesome.
the baseball scene was awesome !!!
and the song (supermassive black hole by muse) was wicked cool. it fit it perfectly.
and when bells and edward came outta the car, edward being all badass.
thats when i died XD
oh my GOD. SO EFFIN HOT.,
and the prom scene, where he kissed her on her neck was absolutely ADORABLE. i loved ut.
i was like 'i want a vampire boyfriend ;-;'
hahah.
but who doesnt?????


ANWYAY.
OVERALL.
twilight was absolutely amazing.
i cant wait for new moon, and i heard the script for new moon is alreayd done :3
wheeeeee.


<333
EDWARD
XD




gotta love 'em.

i

am not even going to waste my time anymore.
because i am fucking DONE.

questions

1) Are you really ready for 70 questions?yeah.
2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?you could call it that.
3) Who were you last hanging out with?people at lacie's party
4) Who did you last say I love you to?uhm. megan? or laura.
6) Have you ever been depressed?oh yes.
7)Have you ever watched the goonies?..no.
8)Have you ever watched the polar express?yeah. i love it.
9) Have you ever been skinny dipping?nope.
10) How are you?tired, sad, annoyed.
11) How has your weekend been?it was pretty cool.
12) Have you ever slept with someone not related with you?yes.
13) Do you bite your nails?i am trying to stop.
14) When was your last physical fight?yesterday. with my brother. hah.
15) Do you have an attitude?i guess.
16) Ever been in love?no.
17) What is your full first name?denise.
18) Like reading?yes.
20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?i dont think so.
21) Do you miss someone?yeah.
22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?twirl.
23) Do you tan a lot?no. i burn.
25) How exactly are you feeling?tired.
27) Ever made out in the bathroom?no.
28) Would you take any of your exs back?no.
29) Are you scared of spiders?yes!
30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?yes.
31) Do you regret anything from your past?no.
32) What are your plans for this weekend?hang out with maybe mariana or megan. or both.
34) Ever kissed somebody that name start with an M?no.
40) What are you craving right now?sleep.
41) Ever been to a bonfire party?yeah.
42) Ever been swimming in a lake or river?yes.
43) Ever ridden a horse?yeah.
44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?no.
45) Have you ever suffered a broken heart?who hasnt?
46) Are you happier single or in a relationship?i dont know.
48) Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?i doubt it.
51) What's irritating you right now?...stuff.
52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?oh yes.
53) Does somebody love you?i guess.
54) What is your favorite color?all of them.
59) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?no.
60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?i guess.
61) Are you a badass?no.
62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?fuckin prank called me three times. haha.
63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?uhm. i cried to her over the phone. mariana.
64) Do you give out second chances too easily?i guess.
65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?forgive. most deffinatly.
66) Is this year the best year of your life?no.
67) What was your childhood nickname?nisy. zickibunkstaedt. :]
68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?when i was a baby.
69) Do you think you're a good person?i dont know.
70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?yeah.

D:

this really sucks.
i called my aunt, and ask if she could take me to see the musical.
she said she'd loved to, but theres one problem.
the musical is sold out for all of december.
AND OPENING NIGHT WAS TWO DAYS AGO D:
fuck.
i'm so sad.
i was looking forward to this so much.
i wanna cry.
i probably seem like i'm over reacting but i wanted to see this so, so bad.

though my aunt said if its playing during the summer, even if its playing 3 hrs from the city we live in (in germany)
she'll take me.
so. i guess i can look forward to that.

hmhmmh

im not sure what to write about. i bet my blogs are getting quite boring eh?
i apologize. haha.
My day went by so slow today.
it was vexatious.
hmh. big word... im using an online thesaurus because i am just so cool like that.
and who doesnt wanna feel smart once in a while? i certainly do.

i have a world history and math quiz tomorrow.
On Islam and some geometry crap nobody gives a flying shit about.

this song is annyoing.
'carpe noctem'
what the hell does that even mean?
i'm basically just writing random shit in here. cuz i have nothing better to talk about.
so..
bear with me. please.


oh, my parents got an email that i passed this german exam shit i had to take last summer.
that was annoying.
plus that one woman was a bitch and was out to confuse the hell outta me.
fuck german people.
..
just kidding ;]
i am german myself XD haha.
well, i have to go to the damn german school this saturday to get my 'award' bullshit.
urgh. and some old guy will give it to me.
last time he like grabbed my butt.
not very excited about that.
but whatever.
then i'm going to go to lacies party. i will be a pirate b/c first she said we all should be and then said we could be whatever we wanted to.
but i wanna wear a puffy blouse.
so, imma be a pirate.
i should buy a toy gun.
here i come party city!

oh.
and im gonna call my aunt tomorrow.
about the musical?!
and i hope she will say yes. if not, im gonna cry.
yesterday, i talked about the musical and my brother was like '...shes 15 years old and she wishes as her christmas present tickets for a musical? see denise, nobody of your german friends is... i dont know. this interested in art or acting.'
he said it kind of differently, but i dont know how to really translate it. haha.
he basically said that i am smarter than my german friends. Well, that they might be book smarter but i am smarter about whats going on in the world, and about art and.
i dont know.
more mature i guess.
which could be true. but i dont know.

hmh.
'you have a sweet butt.'
oh man.
a gay vampire.
XD haha.
this is hilarious.

ANYWAY.
i will go now. because i am done.
:]

au revoir.
(..did i spell that right?)

heh.

i..
love
to
sing.
as i have now discovered.
Well, i've always liked singing. Though i always thought i sucked big, big time.
I still think im not good at singing, but im not the worst. i think.
I wish someday i could be in a musical. That would be incredible.
Acting and singing together? oh man..


I'm obsessed with dance of the vampires.(..like ive said in the other blog)
its ridicolouse. XD
but i love dancing and singing to the songs.
i was dancing through my room just a while ago. haha.
The musical is playing in a town near my old town in germany.
In december. And i'll be in germany in december.
So i'm gonna ask my parents if my christmas present this year, could be that i can go see the musical.
The good seats are abou 93 euros. And the ones where you can see the actors as dots are 64 euros..
i might get the middle ones for 80 euros. Depends on what my parents feel like :p
imma ask if my aunt can go with me.
She's seen it before.
:3
i love her..
yeah.
im bored.

AND IM WATCHING HOUSE.
house is the shit o_o i wish my doctor was like him... minus the being addicted to his pain meds. XD
i lurve this show :3
'woah. sorry, was up late. internet porn'
PFFFT.
XDD
haha.

Der tanz der vampire.

the dance of the vampires.
i really wanna see that musical. My aunt can sing really well, so when i was a kid she always played the soundtrack of der tanz der vampire in her car.
I loved all the songs so she gave me the dvd. TOday when i was looking through my stuff i found the CD. I put it on my itunes and im listening to it right now.
Its beautiful.
The lyrics are in german but whatever.
I read the english translations, and they dont sound as beautiful as the german ones.
Plus the meanings are kind of different.
My favorite song is "die unstillbare Gier" which in english means "Endless Appetite"
no, its not about food.
Well, kind of about his bloodlust. But so much more.
Its amazing.
"Ich will ein engel oder ein teufel sein und ich bin doch nichts als eine kreatur."


"Mit ihrem Herzblut schrieb ich ein gedicht auf ihre weisse haut."
thats one of my favorite lines.

"Das seine trauer mir das herz nicht brach kann ich mir nicht verzeihen."

haha im sorry its all in german.
but i love it :]
and if you want to know what it means, ask me to translate it for you.
Whoever is reading this x]

beautiful songs.